Today I woke up after about only an hours sleep and well I felt shocking. After the crazy events of yesterday and getting some rather big news, my brain would not switch off and it was driving me crazy. Every thought and question was whizzing around my mind and I had no idea which one to answer first or whether I wanted to answer any of them. 
I still was not sure how I felt on the whole ‘my boyfriend now has a baby’ situation and how it was going to affect us individually and a couple. 

I spent some time in town this morning on my own, did a little bit of shopping for the flat ready for some new people to move in with me this weekend. I also went a bought a milkshake, somewhere he took me on one of our very first ‘dates’ and just had time to sit and think about what I wanted. Time passed so quickly sitting there, thinking, I even wrote a post for my May, Myself & I series and I left with a clear head and feeling a lot happier about everything. 

Then when I got home I saw he had changed his profile picture, him holding his precious baby girl and at that moment my heart melted. You can’t even see his face in the picture but I knew there was a huge grin on his face and he was so unbelievably happy and that is all I want for him, to be happy. I want us to be happy, together. 

We went round to his ex’s mums tonight, she had brought him lots of baby things for him to keep at home as like a little starter kit and well it’s safe to say it made me broody as hell but it also made me super happy. She mentioned how she wanted me to meet the baby soon, I suddenly felt a lot of pressure. I just sat there in silence. We hadn’t spoke about me meeting her, I wasn’t sure if that’s what he wanted, and I wasn’t about to start demanding that I meet her. When we got home I told him there was no pressure for me to meet her and it was all down to him, I wanted him to do things at his own pace. All he did was smile at me and I knew he was happy for me to meet her and for me to be a part of her life and right now I couldn’t be happier. 

Yesterday was hard for me, but today I realised that this beautiful little girl that has only been in this world for 3 short weeks and indefinitely part of his life for a day is what we both need. So naturally me being me, I’ve decided to already spoil her rotten and buy her a few gifts from the Disney Store, oh and I’ve bought him a coffee mug for those long nights ahead of him. 

Battenburg ❤